At the risk of sounding incredibly vague, and somewhat cliché, here we go… Because, if I can’t be real on this blog of mine, then I can’t be real anywhere. And, sure, most of the time I’m a very upbeat and positive person here, and I’m afraid that sometimes maybe that makes you think that I don’t have my own pain and problems and sadness. But, I do. And I don’t want to paint a perfect picture of life. Because it’s anything but.
And that’s the phrase that I’m going to remind myself each morning when I wake up. And it’s the phrase that’s going to play through my mind all day. Because surprisingly, it’s kind of an easy thing to do, taking this precious life we have for granted. Don’t you agree? I sure have been guilty of it, on many occasions. But then, life happened. Like, I mean, LIFE, life. The messy, scary, upsetting, stomach-wrenching, ugly-tears-inducing LIFE. And, god, it really sucks when life happens. And it is really easy to fall into this “woe is me” “Why, GOD?” “Nobody else has ever felt pain like this before” type of mindset. It’s so easy to succumb to sadness and let it just completely consume every aspect of your being. Too easy, really. But you know that poem? The one you had to memorize probably (at least I did) in like 3rd grade? “And I, I took the road less traveled by, and that has made all the difference.” I choose to take the road less traveled. I choose to not do what comes easy, and to NEVER take this life for granted and to NOT wallow in sadness. Because, I mean, we’ve all got something terrible in our lives, but for all that sadness, there’s so much joy, too. Just the fact that I’ve been given this life, that my savior died for MY sins (and yours, and hers, and theirs!) Like, WHAT?! Who am I? (I’m Jean Valjean!… sorry… I really need to see that movie, like, yesterday.) Really, though. I’m nothing by myself. But guess what. I’m not just myself. I’m so much bigger because of this. And I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. And, hey, really shitty things happen. I mean, REALLY SHITTY. (Pardon the language.) I know this. All too well. I do. But I know that with everything, there is a purpose. And God has a plan for all of us. And I just need to accept it and TRUST in Him, and know that I am not alone. And none of us are. And I plan on remembering this every time I’m feeling really sad about my life. Every time I think that this isn’t fair, and why do I have to go through this? Why me? Why my family? Why my MOM? WHY? Well, the why isn’t for me to know. And then I’ll remember to take this precious life and really LIVE with it. Isn’t that the point, anyway? Because, none of us are in control. That’s a pretty crazy thing to accept, but I’ve fully accepted it now. Who knows what tomorrow brings? Who cares? All we have is right now. All we have is today. And today is good enough for me.