With Mother’s Day fast approaching, and this being my second year as a mother, I’ve been reflecting a lot recently on the moment I realized I was a mom. I found out I was pregnant when I was already 9 weeks along. I know, I remember feeling like I should have gone on that show “I Didn’t Know I Was Pregnant.” Ha! ;) My first thoughts when the test read “positive” was HOLY CRAP. This is not real. The initial disbelief and shock was quickly followed by happy tears and excitement, of course. But I remember it taking a while for me to really feel like I was a mother. Sure, I knew I was pregnant, and I was growing this baby inside of me, but honestly it hadn’t yet sunk in.
The moment I realized I was a mom for the first time was when I felt those little baby kicks. All of a sudden, this tiny creature that was living inside of me, whose little bean shape we had seen and whose small but mighty heartbeat we had heard, took on a whole new life. All of a sudden, I became incredibly aware that I was a part of something important. I became aware that my body was being occupied by another. And those kicks that we shared from then on, they were his and mine alone. And it was with those very first tiny kicks that I felt, for the first time, like a mom.
In that instant, I remember feeling a little part of my heart was being shared by another, and I knew it would be like that forever. I was instantly aware that a piece of my heart will always belong to another, as long as I live. And it’s the best feeling in the entire world.
The year I lost my mom, Mother’s Day was a dreaded holiday. That was the toughest season of my life. And then, a mere 7 months later, I found out I was pregnant, and it was the most bittersweet I have ever felt. At once, joy for this new life and yet despair because my mom would never know him. Needless to say, Mother’s Day now means something special to me again. It will always be a day that I think of my own mom and feel her missed presence more than ever, but thanks to my little one, it holds happiness in it also. And I know without a shadow of a doubt, that my angel mama will be celebrating with us.
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This was so so sweet!
Thank you :)
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gosh, that has to be so so hard, now having an official day to just miss your mom, as if you don’t miss her all the time, every day, already! i am glad you have sam to give you a reason to celebrate still! and you know, i bet your mom met sam before he was born. :) i bet she’s already met all her grandbabies that haven’t even been sent on into bellies yet!!
Yep, you almost made me cry, Brittany. You are just so sweet, and I absolutely love what you said. I’m holding on to that!! <3
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Thank you so much for sharing such a touching story and time in your life. I am a step mom so this day isn’t for me, but I still get sentimental reflecting on how excited and blessed I am to be a part of my stepkids’ lives!!
That is so sweet! Those kids are lucky to call you step mom. And I think this day is for anyone who fills any sort of “mom” role! <3
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My first mother’s day was surreal. We lost our first born at birth in February so I was a mom but did not have him to celebrate with. Everyone was so kind and tried to treat me as a mother too but it was hard. I was blessed with a healthy baby boy the next January and had a very special mother’s day that year.
Oh, Terri, thank you for sharing your own touching story. How difficult that must have been. So happy that you were blessed with another angel baby! <3
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Thank you! I love your blog…..I read it every day. You are a lucky lady and an inspiration. I love to see Sam’s precious face on your blog. He is a doll. My son is now 12 so I miss those days and I live vicariously through you and my friends and family who have little ones. Treasure every moment, it flies by….. God bless you and your beautiful family.
Love this! I’m about 7 months pregnant and loving all of the crazy little baby kicks! I’m not sure if this Mother’s Day counts for me, but I already feel like a mom for sure!
YES, it absolutely counts for you! <3 Right when you see those two little lines, you're a mom!
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Happy early mother’s day! My first mother’s day, last year, I was pregnant sitting in a hospital bed, scared because I thought I might have to deliver my little Hallie early! But luckily after a few hours of monitoring they sent me home! I just remember feeling so in love with my baby girl and I hadn’t even met her yet! This year will be even better!
Oh gosh, I’m so glad your sweet Hallie is perfect and everything went well! <3
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I hope you have a wonderful mother’s day! You have such a loving family :)
Thank you so much, Andrea! :)
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My favorite Mother’s Day memory was running the Race for the Cure race with my mom after she had cancer.
That is so awesome. I bet that was an amazing experience to share together. <3
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No, I’m not crying. There is something in my eye… Seriously though, I know your mom is so unbelievably proud of you and your little Sam!
You are so sweet, Brittany. You always ALWAYS make me smile. <3 Thank you for that!
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I remember my first Mother’s Day when my husband gave me a locket with my son’s picture in it.
Oh, that is such a sweet present. <3
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I get the whole weekend to celebrate – birthmother’s day on Saturday and mother’s day on Sunday :)
Woo hoo! :) I think it should be a month, personally! ;)
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I’m sure your little Sam knows your mom and that your mom is smiling at how amazing you are with him!
My mom’s been super nostalgic and has started sharing all kinds of stories with me from when I was growing up, particularly on Mothers Day. I now write all my cards to Mommy Mom since that’s what I called her for the longest time growing up
Shannon, I absolutely love that you said that. I never really thought of it like that, but my mom definitely met Sam before we even did. :) I loooove nostalgia, soak up all of those stories!! <3
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This was so sweet <3
I have a 5 week old son & this will be my first Mother's Day! Sometimes it still shocks me when I think "Omg, I am someones mother". It's still so surreal!
Haha it is definitely surreal, and it stops you in your tracks sometimes when you’re like, “oh, crap. Someone depends 100% on me!” It’s an important job! And one that is so worth it <3
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This is too sweet!
Thanks Amanda :)
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Oh sweetie, I didn’t know you’ve lost your mom. I bet she was beautiful to have raised such an amazing daughter. This post is precious. Makes me wanna go hug my teenage babies and tell you to give Sam an extra hug from us, your readers! I always wanted a daughter and would’ve been lucky to have a daughter as awesome as you sweet girl. Extra hugs to you and wishes for a sincerely sweet Mamas Day week!!! xo
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Oh, Andrea, you made me cry. Thank you so much for your sweet comment, it touched my heart so much! Please go hug those babies of yours, you can never do it too much!!! Thank you again for making me feel so very special :)
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My favorite memory is when my son made me a handmade card
Handmade cards are the best! :)
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This post is so darling :)
Thank you, Cheri :)
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I love when my kids make me cards for mothers day!
I’m excited for when Sam is old enough to do that! :)
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My favorite Mother’s Day memory is spending the day with my mother at the park and having lunch together.
That sounds so absolutely lovely! :) What a sweet memory!
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Oh my goodness, now I don’t feel as embarrassed to say I didn’t know I was pregnant with my first till I was 11 weeks along! Haha! Crazy how you can look back and think “but how did I miss that?” I’m sure your Momma and Sam got some good quality time in before you ever even knew he was going to be your son :). My favorite Mother’s Day moment would probably have to be last year. Our oldest daughter’s birthday fall will fall on Mother’s Day every couple of years, and last year it did. We opted out of the traditional family events and had our own “Addison Day”. We went to the zoo and the park and she had a blast. Nothing is better then celebration Mother’s Day and the person who calls you “Momma” on the same day.
Haha seriously, HOW could we have missed that?! Glad to hear I’m not alone! ;) And I love love love what you said about Sam and my momma getting some time in before I even met him. I’m clinging to that truth, because it’s the sweetest thing to imagine! <3 I love your memory too- what a special day for your Addison- and for you! I'm sure she loved it.
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My favorite Mother’s Day memory was when I spent my first mother’s day with my infant son and the rest of my family.
Such a sweet memory!
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my favorite mother’s day memory was definitely when I got to celebrate it as a mother for the first time in 2013 after my daughter was born. And based on the timing of when my kids were born, I had one baby for my first mother’s day ever, and two babies for my second mother’s day (though my son was only a few weeks old)! I’ve always wanted to be a mother, but becoming one was even better than I thought it could be!
Awww that is the sweetest! :) Your babies are too cute!
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I knew I was a Mom when the nurse gave me my son in the hospital for the very first time! I just cried and cried! It was such an emotional time for me!
Ahhh Julie, I know exactly the feeling. I cried, too! It was just SO emotional and incredible! <3
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The very first time my son looked into my eyes. It sounds crazy but it happened moments after birth!
Oh, what a special moment!! One you’re sure to never ever forget! <3
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I was a brand new mom and totally sleep deprived on my first mother’s day. I’m hoping this one, my second time, will be more enjoyable and less about survival! And that my little one will sleep in. ;)
My favorite Mother’s Day memory was celebrating that special day with my grandmother, mom and my first born.
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I think my favorite Mother’s Day was when we rented a van, loaded all my kids and grandkids in it and drove three hours to my Mom’s house to surprise her. We brought lunch with us and had a wonderful day.
My favorite Mother’s Day memory is when my kids rehearsed a Mother’s Day puppet show. They made there own puppets out of socks and used a cardboard box as the theater with the help of my husband. It was adorable and so creative that they came up with on there own.
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I knew I was a mom the first time I felt my daughter move inside of me. It was the best feeling ever!