I had a “feeling.” So I took a test on Wednesday night, September 12. Pretty late- right when we were going to bed. Maybe not the best time to take a pregnancy test, but I tend to be spontaneous about things like this. And at first only one line showed up and I was convinced I wasn’t pregnant, but Zack kept watching it like a hawk, and slowly, a second faint pink line began to appear.
Well, shoot.
First reaction? Terror, to be honest. Yes, we’ve always said we want 3 kids. More recently we’ve been talking a LOT about having our third. So it shouldn’t shock me that much. I wanted this!! And still… seeing those two lines, knowing this was IT. It’s a scary thing, no matter what. Honestly, I freaked out. I did. My mind raced with all of the things. We both looked at each other with surprise on our faces. I mean, yes, we know how babies are made and we might not have been the most careful (obviously…) but nonetheless, we were both in awe.
This is it.
We’re having another baby.
We lay in bed that night for quite some time, in silence, and then talking through whatever we were feeling (a literal rollercoaster, lemme tell you). It was a long night.
Maybe don’t take a pregnancy test late at night if you want to sleep well that night. ;)
But then, of course, there’s also this: complete and utter JOY!!! We are having a baby!!!
We are totally unprepared and slightly terrified and have NO clue what we are doing, we will be outnumbered and I know we’ll go even more insane (ha!) but this is such a blessing and we could not be more excited and humbled and honored all at the same time, to be trusted by God to bring another little human into this world to love fiercely and join our circus.
God’s timing is better than any we could ever think up ourselves. We are putting all of our trust in Him. And He is good. So so good.
So here we go again… and I plan on enjoying the entire ride.
As far as how I’ve been feeling, this pregnancy has been the hardest one, by FAR. I wasn’t sick at all with Sam- never experienced any nausea (I know, I was the WORST, trust me haha) and then with Sophie I did get nausea up until about 12 weeks, and this time around I’ve had nausea every single day, pretty much throughout the day (not just morning!) from about 6 weeks until now (almost 14 weeks) and I’m still not back to my “normal self.” Praying the magical 2nd trimester makes me feel like myself again! I definitely think having two toddlers around this time has absolutely made it harder, but even without that, it’s been a rough one. But I am not complaining at all, and feel so grateful to be entrusted with carrying this little life!
We find out the gender soon, and are still debating on how we’re going to do that.. I love how we found out just us three when I was pregnant with Sophie (you can watch that cute little video HERE) so I think we might do the same. :) And then mayyyybe throw a gender reveal party with close family and friends, because your girl loves any excuse for a party! We’ll see!
So yes, we are terrified and anxious and have no idea WHAT we are doing, but goodness are we SO excited to add another little one to our crazy circus of a family! I’ve always wanted a big family, we both come from families of 5, so this just feels RIGHT. May 2019, our family will be complete!
Thank you all for following along this journey of ours! It’s never going to be perfect, but it’s oh so beautiful.
xo
Yay!! Many congratulations!! ????????
Thank you so much, Shannon!!
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Congrats! So happy for you all. 5 is the magic number…it’s crazy, but perfect.
Our oldest is on the autism spectrum, so I know that shocked, scared, excited feeling all at once. Sending all the love and prayers your way!
Ahhh yes then you REALLY know what we’re feeling!! Thank you so much, Erin! That means a lot.
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I could not be happier for you. I’ve been following for a while now and I think you guys are the cutest couple and seem to me, even though I don;t know you personally, as excellent, loving parents!! This is my third pregnancy too and I too felt terrible up until the 14 week and now I’m back to “normal”…. huge belly though! hahaha! Wish you all the best! Party of five is the new black :)
Aww thank you Vanessa!! That’s so sweet of you to say! :) Congrats to you on your babe, too! And yes, party of five is for sure the new black! ;)
xo
I started following you when I was pregnant with my first babe and you were pregnant with Sophie. I don’t know you, but these days with social media, I feel like I do :). This makes me so excited for your little family! Congratulations to you all!
Aw you’re so sweet!!! Thanks Hailey- for the congrats and for following along our journey for so long!! I really appreciate it.
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Congrats! So happy for your family ????????????
Aw thanks Kelly!
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Congrats again, mama!! So excited for you guys!
Thanks so much, Rachel!!
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So exciting! Congratulations!
Thanks Tracey!
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Ahhh! Congratulations!!! Excited to follow on your journey as your family grows!
Thanks, Danielle!!
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Congratulations! Thank you for sharing your journey, excited to follow along!
Thanks so much!!
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Katie, Zack!! I am soooo excited for you guys!!! 3 is crazy at first, it’s true! But once you get your rhythm down, it’s so incredibly beautiful! I’m always shocked how our hearts make room for more, when it seems like they’re already full to burst, but that’s the miracle of it all, right?! Can’t wait to follow your bump journey friend!! CONGRATS!! PS our caboose baby is coming May too :D!!
I just read your blog post too- CONGRATS Casey!!! So excited for you, girl! :) Yay babies!!! You make having 3 look easy!
xo
So so so excited and happy for you all! Congratulations!
Thanks Ashley!!
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Congratulations! We’re deciding whether or not to go for a third and right now it terrifies me! But excites me at the same time. I can completely relate to your feelings. Thanks for being so honest with your initial reaction! Very happy for your sweet family! :)
Oh it is definitely terrifying!! Haha but I think it’s one of those things that you can’t overthink ;) hahaha
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Congrats Katie! My brother and his wife are expecting their third boy in June! So exciting! Can’t wait to hear the gender! Gender reveal parties weren’t a thing when I was pregnant so I need to live vicariously through others! Ha
Haha! I love any excuse for a party, like I said, so why not, right?! ;)
xo
congratulations, what an exciting time!
Thanks Samantha!!
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I’m so excited for you and Zack!! Our little girls are close in age and I’ve been waiting for you to announce another baby ????. Can’t wait to follow your journey again! I’ve been here for all 3!!! Hope you start to feel better soon!
You are the best, Brittany! I know, you’ve been here for it all! So grateful for you!
xo
Congrats!! You guys just seem like a very happy genuine family! This baby is so lucky:)
Aw thanks Jessie!!
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Congratulations to you and your family!!! What an amazing blessing he/she will be. Crossing my fingers the second trimester will help you feel better. ????
Thanks so much, Samantha!
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Congratulations!! I am so excited for you all! I hope you get feeling better soon! Also, May is the best month to have a birthday! ;)
I agree! My mom and grandpa both were May babies, and our anniversary is May! I love the month. :)
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CONGRATS!!!!!!!!! SO VERY THRILLED FOR ALL OF YOU. HOW EXCITING. I hope you start feeling better really soon. Your angel above is smiling down on all of you and rejoicing in this special blessing.
Aw thank you so much!! And yes, I know she is!
xo
Awww congratulations!! That’s such exciting news! I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving!
Thank you Angela!!
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Congrats! I’m part of the May 2019 baby group too. My hubby and I are expecting twin girls and already have a 5 yo boy and 1 yo boy. So I totally understand all your fears!! I’m right there with you!! Congratulations and enjoy the journey. Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family!!
Yayyyy for May babies! :) And oh my gosh, so exciting! Twin girls!!! Love.
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I have been following your blog for a while, and genuinely am so excited for you and your family!!! Congratulations!!! You continue to inspire me to embrace the chaos in my own little circus. :)
Aw thanks so much, Abbie!! You’re so sweet. :)
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Congrats, Katie!! I’m pregnant, too and due in May 2019! Same as you! Hehe! Not to mention same symptoms also. Didn’t have morning sickness with my first but I do have now with my second. On my 14th week now and thank God I’m feeling quite better compared to the past weeks. I had morning sickness that would last whole day everyday. Hang in there! It will get better. Congrats to us! Take care.
Ahhh yeah it’s definitely hard! But yay for feeling better!! Congrats to you, too, Jula!
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???? congrats Katie!! You’re not so little family looks so much like mine. A sweet little boy like Sam, A sassy little girl like Sophie, my third pregnancy was the same and hopefully yours gets better because mine did not ???? But in the end it was worth it because we have the nicest little boy ????
I wish you guys the very best for this new phase, May your family of five be so blessed ????
Xoxo
Laura