I thought I should write you a letter, to try to sort out all of these feelings I have now that you have reached one year.
You have taught me so much this year, not just about life and babies, but about myself. Love, patience, understanding, joy- these are all things I thought I knew before you and then you came into the world and that knowledge grew exponentially.
I want you to know that above everything else in this world, you are so very loved. By myself, by your dad, by your grandparents (on this earth and in heaven), by every single person that has the pleasure of knowing you. Heck, you’re even loved by people who haven’t met you yet! It’s because of your sweet nature and your joy that you bring with you everywhere you go. You are a little light in this world, my sweet boy. Don’t you ever forget that.
This year has been a challenging one. The most challenging year of our lives. The instant you entered this world, our lives were changed forever. In one single heartbeat. In one single cry. I saw your little red face, and that was it. Life instantly made sense.
Every day with you is an adventure. At 13 months, you are just now on the cusp of taking your first steps. You hear the word “NO!” and you look over your shoulder and give us a sheepish grin. Every. Single. Time. You giggle when your daddy lets you attack his hair, and you rock back and forth with the most serious look on your face any time music is playing. You eat your food with such deep concentration and let us know when you are DONE.
I love your spirit. I love your independence. I love your sweet grin and your beautiful eyes. I love your seriousness and your determination. I love your silliness and your ability to make everyone around you happy. I love your bedhead and thigh rolls. I love that you are mine.
Thanks for making me a mama, Sam Sam. Nobody else would have made sense.