Being a parent is hard. There, I said it. I’m not even a month into it yet, and I can tell you that. It’s 2:23 AM as I type this. I spent the past what seems like hours upon hours (but was really probably roughly 30 minutes) soothing my baby and begging him to stop crying and screaming. Finally, there’s silence and he looks up at me with those beautiful eyes of his and time stands still. Nothing else matters in that moment. Everything is worth it and I somehow stop caring about sleep or sanity or whatever I was worrying about before. Because all that matters right now is cuddling my baby. That’s it.
I want to soak in this moment. To never forget… Your perfect button nose. The little rolls in your smooth skin. The way your head rests on my chest. Your tiny hands clenched into little fists. The big yawns and the way you smack your lips right after. How your feet kick around so fervently. Your little grunts. The rising of your belly as you breathe in and out. How your soft fine hair feels. Your smell. The dimple in your chin that you got from me. Your eyes silently gazing into mine. I never want to forget these quiet moments that just you and I share. I want to wrap them up and put them in a box, so I can come back to them some day in the future when I know I’ll be missing them like crazy.
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He is just so precious. Cherish these days, even when he’s screaming. You’re so good for capturing all these pictures. You’ll love to have them as he grows. Hope he’s letting you get some rest this morning.
Aw thank you, Katie. He actually let us get 4 straight hours of sleep last night! It was amaaazing! :) And I am definitely cherishing these moments.
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That first picture is absolutely precious.
Aw thanks :) I love it too. It’s getting framed, for sure.
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Definitely cherish these days…it gets easier by the week, and in a few months (which seems like forever away), you will almost forget how hard it was! And remember, sometimes babies just cry. They just do. It’s ok to hold him and rock him and let him know he’s safe in your arms…
That’s why people have more babies, right? They forget about these days? ;) I am definitely cherishing the tender moments- I know I’ll miss them! <3
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Hi Katie,
It’s Karen, your old next door neighbor! I was thinking of you and Zack today, and thought I would peak at your blog; what a wonderful sight before my eyes! What a beautiful little baby boy you have! Sending you, Zack, and your Sam heartfelt, happy thoughts. As I read through your posts, over the months leading up to today’s, I was a really amazing thing; you documented your journey beautifully. I am very, very happy for you and your little family. Your posts about your mum are so thoughtful. I truly enjoyed them.
Karen! It’s so good to hear from you! :) I hope you and Nick and the little guy are all doing well! We miss having you guys as our neighbors. Thank you so much for your sweet words. Keep in touch! Oh, and Zack says hi!
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Oh, this makes me teary, Katie. It is HARD like nobody can prepare you for, and then those incredible feelings of love and sheer devotion are always there. I wish I had been writing when mine were little…writing these thoughts down will bring you so much joy I the years to come. Because we are human, and we forget. Tiny details get lost in a sea of seemingly endless mothering. So keep writing them down. And keep admiring that Sam.
It is absolutely something no one could have prepared me for! You put it perfectly. I will have no problem continuing to both write down all of my memories and also admiring little Sam :)
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This is just the sweetest post!!! I swear, you were just meant to be a mom <3
Awww Chelsea!!! Thanks sweet girl :)
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Love this!!!
Thanks :)
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What everyone else said. Lovely.
Thanks so much <3
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He is so precious, I can only imagine how those moments make the sleepless nights worth it.
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They absolutely do!
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Such a sweet blog Katie :)
Thanks, Bailey :)
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This post makes my heart happy :) And I think it’s cute he got a little chin dimple! I wish we could keep experiences and feelings in boxes to come back to. *sigh*
Wouldn’t it be so incredible?! :) That’s why we have blogs, though, right?
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Just so perfect & precious. I think more people should treasure & appreciate those moments!
Aww thank you Jamie! <3
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omigosh his little concerned expression is too much. so much cuteness in one face! happy first mothers day!
Right?! All of his expressions are just too much :)
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